Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Happy New Year

I am glad this year is coming to a close. The reconstructive surgeries took a bite out of my life that I can't get back. I had wanted to have my final surgery this year, but for various reasons, I'm having it on January 6th, a week from today. Then, that's it. My brother has been struggling with the knee replacement surgery he had two weeks ago at Mass General Hospital in Boston. He went into the emergency room last night because they couldn't find a pulse in his leg.

Yeah, so long 2009, I'm glad you're coming to a close.

Monday, December 7, 2009

The Meaning of Christmas

I have to confess, the holiday season isn't my favorite time of year. I realized this about 10 years ago when I became aware of how frustrated and upset I got around Christmas. The pressure to buy gifts among massive crowds, wrap the presents, send cards, decorate, cook, etc, etc. It all seemed like the presumed joy of the season never came because it was overshadowed by the pressure of what I was expected to do.

I've threatened several times to hop on a plane and bow out of Christmas on some remote tropical island, but of course it always seems I'm crunched for cash this time of year so it never works out. I honestly don't think I would mind Christmas if could simply get together with family and friends for a pot lock dinner, have a good time without the exchange gifts. It would also be nice to skip cooking Christmas Day and work at a soup kitchen feeding the homeless instead. I've asked my nephews if they would do this with me on a few Christmases, but it didn't seem to excite them--for them Christmas is all about getting gifts.

As for me, I wouldn't mind getting any gifts because it's a crap shoot as to whether or not I would like the gift, and returning something I don't like is just one more hassle on the long list of things to do during this time.

I just want to get away from the commercialism of the holidays. I want to spend quality time with the people that matter to me--gift-exchange free. And I want to give back to those less fortunate than me. I want to spend a day with my mom and friends in New York City, take pictures of us under the Rockefeller Christmas Tree. I would love to see the Nutcracker ballet with someone I love.

I want to create wonderful Christmas memories like everyone else. Just take the commerce aspect out of it!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

God Bless My Life

The kick-off of the holiday season has begun. I'm watching the lighting of the Christmas Tree at Rockefeller Center on TV. I remember my days at Accessories Magazine when I attended the annual Hot Sox party at their corporate offices looking down on the Rockefeller skating rink. Everyone stood at the windows overlooking the live Christmas event. The performers even popped into the party afterwards and mingled with us, like Cyndy Lauper and her husband. There's no place like NYC to get into the Christmas spirit. I miss those days.

I feel grateful for having experienced such wonderful times--especially in New York City--during my life. Now that my health is comming back, I am looking forward to more good memories. I will admit that the last few years haven't been great, but there's no reason that I can't look forward to better days.

Today I choose to be happy and blessed, even though things aren't the best. I am cozy at home with my three cats. I have a job, I have a family and I will be fine.